january update

Okay, so January is almost over and I’ve only blogged twice. I blame Etsy work, reading and trying to catch up on Once a Upon a time episodes. :)

Anyway, I wanted to give an update on the three munchkins. They are getting so ridiculously big, it’s crazy!

Emery: My delicate little flower. She is such a big helper. She’s so good at cleaning up with me, making food with me, helping me with Ellis. She loves that little boy. She’s his second mom for sure. If he’s crying she tries to calm him down and plays games with him. The other day while I was putting gas, I heard Ellis crying and she got out of her car seat, put her head right next to him and sang to him to calm down. It was really cute. It’s her character. Her nature. She will be a great mom someday. She’s also doing much better in school. She’s a timid girl, but school and ballet have allowed her to come out of her shell a bit. And lastly, she’s eating a lot more!! This little twig that barely weighs 32 pounds is FINALLY eating more. It was a constant battle with her especially when she hit 2 years old. This eating thing would seriously bring me to tears but her doctor always assured us that she would grow out of it. And indeed she has.

Ella: Oh Ella, Ella bella. My wild little fire ball. We went through a ‘semi’ tough time with her last year. I think she went through what is called “terrible-two’s”, lol, but she seems to be growing out of it. We just have to talk to her differently and discipline her differently. What works for Emery doesn’t work for her. This used to be our dialogue almost everyday: Ella: “I want juice.” Me: “Okay, can you please go find your sippy cup?” Ella: “I don’t see it. You go get it.” Her tone was not at all demanding, but a lazy one. And we’ve learned that if we ask her differently, she will do it. I thank God that I’m not an ill tempered mother. Someone else would slap her for talking like that, but I have a gentler approach. We can’t reprimand children for acting like children. If you’re in Disney with your child for hours and he starts throwing a fit, chances are he’s tired, hungry, exhausted, etc. Clearly if they’re disobeying you in any way, then discipline. But don’t spank him for acting like a child. Put the kid to nap. And so I’ve learned to meet Ella’s needs before she even recognizes them. I give her lots of snacks throughout the day, I make her nap, I give her special attention to prevent her from having meltdowns. She’s taught me to be a better mother and I love her so very much. She’s such a bright little girl. Her smile and laugh is extremely contagious. She’s so full of life! I love staring at her while she dances in ballet class. She engages and becomes such a magical little person. You can’t help but stare at her.

Ellis: Little Bubs! He’s doing so great. He’s sitting and crawling all over the house and follows us wherever we go. If the girls go play in their playroom, he usually follows and finds stuff to play with. The other day I found all three of them playing in there and it was such a precious sight. He loves his big sisters and finds them so amusing. I always joke with michael and tell him that Emery will be the “mother” and Ella and Ellis will be partners in crime. Already he plays rough with her and tries to eat her hair. He’s more gentle with Emmy. lol. He’s also eating solids now. I was giving him cereal and once when he turned 7 months, I started giving him veggies/fruits. He hates bananas and loves sweet potato and carrots. And this week I introduced plum and brown rice. He loved it! He also loves mum mums and blueberry puffs. About his character: He’s a sweet, cuddly, strong willed little boy. He pursues something until he gets it. And he has ladies in church that absolutely adore him. I thank God for each of them. Because of their willingness and love for him, I’m able to lead on Sundays with Michael without any worries. He’s such a loved little boy and I’m so thankful that God has allowed me to experience such love.

It’s amazing to me that I have three kids. I’m really loving spending every moment with these munchkins. As for us: Michael and I are doing great. We have a marriage conference that we’re attending this weekend and I’m excited about that. We also have a foster care meeting January 31st. Would you pray for us? Both Michael and I feel very strongly about this and we are excited to see how God will use our family to bless these children. We know it will be hard. No matter the amount of time we have a child in our home, it will hurt to see them leave. But that will be our ministry. We’ll share more about it after our first meeting.

Until next time, :)

oh, hello there 2012

HELLO THERE!

My goodness! I haven’t blogged in forrrever and I miss it so much. The kids and the shop are keeping me so busy and in my free time, I always battle with writing or reading…. Reading wins. All the time. But one of my new year’s “resolutions”, if you want to call it that, is to blog at least once a week. Let’s see how that goes. lol.

So I’ll try to blog more about the kids and just our lives – the girado 5.

Stay tuned. haha…

must read

Gosh, I’ve missed reading. There’s little time to read in my busy, busy life – especially now with the Etsy shop. So I took total advantage of the 11 hour car ride to Georgia and bought myself a book to read while on vacation. And oh, that book did not disappoint. I finished it in 3 days!!

If you’ve read the Hunger Games and like dystopian books, you MUST read Divergent by Veronica Roth. It’s a trilogy and the second one comes out Spring 2012. I can not wait!

- the book nerd

photo session

I’m so thankful for this little family I have. Thankful for pictures and smiles. For photographers and cameras that get to capture sweet moments like these.

Picture is from out holiday photo session. Will be sharing more very soon!

happy halloween…

The girls had so much fun this Halloween. I seriously think they love Halloween more than their birthdays. They love dressing up (what girl doesn’t), they love knocking on doors to get candy, they love trick or treating with their friends. And the past 3 years have been so much fun. Although I’m a little sentimental about Ellis growing up so fast, I can’t wait to see him running around in his costume with his big sisters. Halloween also marks the beginning of the holidays and that makes my heart happy. I love this time of year!

Today we spent halloween with our friends, just like we did last year. One of our pastor’s daughter’s birthday is on Halloween, so we went to their house to have pizza and cupcakes, then went trick or treating with all the kids. So fun! Here are some pictures of halloween this year. Emery was princess Jasmine, Ella was princess Aurora and Ellis was Michael. lol. He had on a long sleeved shirt, skinny khakis and a beard. Haha.

his provisions

Never did I imagine that my Etsy shop would do so well. This was supposed to be a small thing. A small way in which I could help pay for some of our bills. A way that I could use some of the creativity I feel God gave me. We calculated my orders last week and I’ve grossed $2,100 this month. I profited much less after deducting etsy fees, pay pal fees, materials, etc. But still. That amount blows my mind. Like I said, this was supposed to be a small thing.

Now this post is not to brag on how well the shop is doing. Nope. On the contrary. This post is to brag about God’s provision, grace and faithfulness. It’s no secret that when you’re in ministry AND have only one income coming in, things can get pretty tight. Michael and I were convinced that that’s the way it was going to be for the rest of our lives. And we were okay with that. We’re still okay with that. We are where God wants us to be. Michael in ministry and me at home. For 5 years we struggled – some times more than others. But God always, always, always provided. Always.

Michael and I have learned to let go and give God what is God’s. I’m not going to lie. It was hard at first. We tithe every month, but at times we felt like we could definitely use that money. My selfishness and greed wanted to get in the way. But we found that tithing through direct pay was easy. No writing checks, no getting tempted to keep the money. It’s the first thing that’s deducted out of our bank account every month. We have remained faithful even in desperate times of need. And God always, always, always provided. We have so much more to learn about the discipline of money and being good stewards, but God is slowly teaching us.

We don’t tithe because we want His love in return or His provisions. That is a false gospel. We give because everything belongs to Him anyway. I am overwhelmed with everything God has given me. A husband, 3 beautiful, healthy kids, a bed that I can sleep on, food to nourish my children. Seriously, everything else He provides my family with is just icing on the cake.

my girls

I just wanted to share this precious picture and say that I adore these girls. Though they make my life crazy at times, they are two hilarious little girls and I’m thrilled that I get to see them grow up and become little women.

I love you Emery and Ella.

reformed

I love that Michael helps me with my invitation orders. Most nights we sit and talk on the table while we cut burlap or tie hemp. And most of our talks are about his work, his meetings and his theology class at church. The church staff is going through a theology class led by one of the pastors and Michael’s really enjoying it. He tells me what he’s learned and we’ve had some discussions about things they’ve talked about. Mainly we talk about reformed theology; Calvinism. Now, all the pastors at our church are reformed, Michael’s reformed, most of my friends from summit are reformed (if not all), but I’m still having a hard time accepting some of the points in TULIP. Mostly because I was raised arminian. So here are the 5 points of Calvinism:

T: Total Depravity – All humanity is dead in trespasses and sin. Man is unable to save himself.

U: Unconditional Election - Because man is dead in sin, he is unable to initiate response to God; therefore, in eternity past God elected certain people to salvation.

L: Limited Atonement - Because God determined that certain ones should be saved as a result of God’s unconditional election, He determined that Christ should die for the elect alone.

I: Irresistible Grace - Those whom God elected and Christ died for, God draws to Himself through irresistible grace. God makes man willing to come to Him.

P: Perseverance of the Saints - The precise ones God has elected and drawn to Himself through the Holy Spirit will persevere in faith.

I get most of these points. But I’m obviously having a hard time accepting unconditional election. How could God elect certain people for salvation and condemn others to hell? Who am I that God choose me to spend eternity with him? It should humble me, but if I’m honest and raw with you, it doesn’t. It hurts me. As a mom, it’s brought me to tears just thinking about my children. What if God chooses Emery and Ellis? But not Ella? I know I shouldn’t think like that, but I do. I know God says, “believe in the Lord Jesus and you and your household will be saved.” I also understand that God’s justice is not the way we view justice. It’s just a hard point to accept. I know most of my reformed friends have struggled with this point. But they’ve all accepted it.

Reading about Calvinism has allowed me to look at some bible verses in an entirely different way. And I know that God’s stirring up my heart. Do I have to make a choice between calvinism or arminianism? No. But I think it’s important for our kids. We shape them, mold them, teach them and I want to be on the same page as Michael. There’s no denying that what I’ve read about it, makes sense. For a couple of months I was being stubborn about it and felt like I didn’t want to accept that God could be that way. But Michael kept telling me, “It’s not about what you feel. You need to go deeper and read God’s word. See what He has to say about it.” And I have. I’m just glad that through this whole thing, Michael has not been hard on me or shoved calvinism down my throat. On the contrary. He’s given me space. Has allowed me to read about it. Has answered my questions. Has heard my concerns. Has prayed for me. I battled with God. I cried and told him exactly how I felt. And slowly God softened my heart. I can’t say I’m reformed, but I’m understanding it more and more.

If you want to read more about it, this is a good resource.